yet another recap

0346 Sleep deprivation, still at work, doesn't even matter I have to be here again in 8 hours + with new clothes and willing to make my customers happy with lodging in the destination of their preference.

Today is one of those days that you don't feel time goes by, you only stay put and the movie develops the way you're used to, get up, take a bath, dress up, drive to work, do your deeds for 10 hours and then you get to the same moot point, sleep or sleeplessness? routine is a bitch and I don't even know how to deal with this weird yet familiar feeling, it's like to be trapped in one of these little thingies used by the owners of hamsters to let them waste their energy, you don't know when it starts and when it ends and in the long run you know somewhere, sometime you're going to need a change, there are so many things that roam in my head that I don't know how to approach 'em and that frustrates me, I want to do all at the same time but I'm so confused that I can't handle the pressure, sometimes I feel like I need to yell my lungs out, maybe that's why I am so easygoing with my coworkers and I tend to joke so much, it is that I need to feel alive? maybe I only need to feel that blood still run through my veins and I'm not made of steel with a wrecked stopwatch in the chest, hopefully next month I will get my so deserved rest, I'm planning to get my aforementioned 5 day suspension contemplated this as a temporary removal of my duties at work as a punishment for the crime against humanity depicted by parking my car in an assigned spot (obviously not for me) maybe I should plan my long overdue trip to Los Angeles, CA and get the merchandise for my store for the upcoming season (the best part of the year to make business) after all, make money makes me happy, who knows, time will tell but enough about this rant, I gotta go to sleep.